Friday, June 22, 2007 @1:59 AM
today i went with pris in the morning to get choc and spics muffins and chewy junior! choc and spics muffins are the best i have ever eaten! haha. the taste is unique and they are just so so good! softer then normal muffins u see on the market, and i think it has sort of a cake texture? love the chocolate chip one lots. especially when warmed up. so so yummy! hehe. and the price is considered cheap too, $1 for chocolate chip, double chocolate, banana, coconut, cheese, punpkin etc. $1.20 for blue berry, cramberry. for the chewy junior. to me its considered as a latest craze in singapore for queues. haha. followed by the recent donut factory at raffles city. which i don't think its very nice except for the chocolate one. hehe. on top is white and there is chocolate inside of it. warmed up is excellent! i heard from my ex collegues that donuts when eaten after it is baked or eaten on the spot where you brought it is the nicest. even so i feel that this does not justify queueing for 3 hours for it. but i still prefers those market kind one bah, soft soft de. hehe. for chewy junior, to me i don't find it very outstanding. maybe its my braces and the bite plate. i feel that its not chewy and abit hard to bite. but pris and my mom seems to love it. both said it was chewy and tasted nice. i tried apple, oreo, blue berry and peanut butter. think the cream goes well with the base. apple, i don't really like the apple topping, tasted abit like medicine taste. just a tad bit, but it destroy the taste abit. oreo's presentation was not very nice, but it tasted not bad. i think out of these 4, i prefered the blueberry or peanut butter bah. i think. haha. don't really fancy it though. think my bite plate cause me not able to enjoy the chewiness of the pastry. sadz hor. from what i read, the waiting time for this is 30 mins. i reached at 11.15am. but the shop only opens at 11.30. haha. be there at 11.30 and you can be the first few, however barely 10 mins after 11.30 i saw 6 to 7 people behind me queueing already. haha. abit scary as the crowd just popped up. so i think its best to go just when the shop opens to avoid queueing.
went driving today as well. feel satisfied as finally my first few minutes of driving was quite stable. haha. not like last few times when i will release the clutch too much, or press too much of accelerator or cause the car to jerk forward etc. haha. maybe its the car that caused me to have a better start of my lesson. hehe. i did test routes today. completed 4 out of 10. the traffic was quite light today, so i can complete quite alot bah. hehe. today i met plenty of nice drivers! many gave way to me, even if i made a mistake, they will wait patiently behind my car and never sound the horn. hehe. the instructor was nice to tell me what must take note at each test route. and i must remember that when driving off on a slope, half clutch first and all the way, before releasing break then accelerate. i hope i have enough lessons to last me till my test. hehe.
wendy appeal's to nus was changed from denied to approved. so good right! i hope this thing happen to pris also. hehe. in the beginning i did ponder about my friends scoring lower then me but got into the same course. abit unfair bah. my dad did added in salt and pepper by saying don't go for courses which has a lower bench mark compared to your score. i don't really believe in that. but now i don't care about it at all. i'm happy for them. =) i got a place inside does not mean others should not be offered a place inside. its a fair game we're playing. so i'm happy for everyone. and i have accompany as well. hehe. we can study together, and help each other. so good right. hehe.
i enjoy my life. i have never regretted much on anything that i have done or any of my decisions. not that i know of, if i really regretted it i think i will remember it, but up to now there's none. except for this one, that will be inside my memory for very long i guess. being together with wm. i do enjoy the times i spend with him, and i never regretted about accepting him. but what i regret now is i should not have accepted him in the first place. haha. contradicting and confusing i think. cause now we broke up, and we agreed during our relationship that we will be friends if we broke up. but sadly, wm cant do it. and i regret telling him that he still has a chance. but we have to start as friends again. i regret giving him that hope. saying that if he tried to woo me again, then maybe i will grow fonder of him. though he say he cant do it, and hope we just get together again before he does anything. i regret not being strong about our break up, not having a clean break up. i regret picking up his calls, still sms him like nth has happen and we are still friends quite soon after our break up. not giving him enough time to cool down from this event. i regret showing that i still cared about him. which i do as a friend, but it only make him not give up on me. i regret that i accepted this relationship too fast, when i have only known him much on msn and phone calls but not much in person. i regret not knowing how sentimental and emotional he was. finally, i regret to even start this relationship as now we cant even be like before. which was the period that i really like and now i feel wasted that i cause it to be lost forever. it was all in my own foolish part that i thought we can be like last time again. when only reality hits me, that i know i have to stop this thinking cause its not possible to anymore. what would it be like if we never been together? alot much better then now i guess. i feel guilty, that he chose me as his first gf, and i did not do my part in being attentive, thinking for him, putting him in one of my top piorities, etc. but i cant, its not possible for me. so i feel guilty of giving him such a sad first experience. he deserve a much better ger then me. perhaps it was because he loved me more compared to me loving him. or me myself was just going for it for experience for cruelty saying just going for the fun of it. no matter what it was, or what could have happen. its over. i need a closure from it all. its not going to help thinking so much when all is over. i just pity him, because its going to be difficult for him to have closure in this. i never gave him the chance he wanted at the end, and i beat around the bush. i caused more misery to him. and though i wanted to help make it less hurting, i think i ended up hurting him more. i don't know what to do now except to leave him alone (yeah. but it will hurt him also) i don't know le. lost for words. i just hope he can let it go, or treat me as an enemy instead. i'm sorry.
i know by typing what i'm thinking down may ruin my life, as people will know inside out who i am. but somehow typing this down, makes me let go of it bah. at least its not cop up inside of me. =) so hope not alot of people see, or none at all and this will be my diary. haha.